Mementoes Of Mine

it's been awhile..

2009-08-28T23:39:00.002+08:00

summative for cardiovascular system and respiratory system is finally over.. after the horrible months of enduring the hardships of having to push myself to study.. i finally have 3 days of hols.. basically cuz it's merdeka.. and finally.. more time for myself.. and my darling piano.. but.. class resumes again on tuesday.. which means.. more to study.. more stress.. more pimples.. more fats.. more everything.. sighs.. this is the life of a medical student.. sometimes i wonder.. if this'll actually end.. if i can actually reach the end of the tunnel.. to the light.. BUT i shall not be passimistic and think positive.. hehe.. all will be fine..

two months of crazy-ness is more than enough to drive me crazy.. though it's just 2 systems.. it feels like it's a hundred.. if only human beings weren't that complicated.. both physically and mentally.. the world would be a much better place.. studying makes the days seem longer.. and lonelier.. it isn't a nice feeling.. but it's what i have to endure through if i want to achieve the goals and hopes others place on me.. i've no idea why i torture myself like that.. but i guess it's just my personality to oblige and sacrifice for others if more are happier.. i could have been the journalist or musician i always wanted to be.. though.. there are no regrets.. i just need more strength to get through this..

time is catching up.. 2009 is coming to an end.. though there were many happy sweet moments.. there are many painful hurtful ones as well.. 2008's new years eve seems so far away.. that was when we had our first exam.. and what pleasureable memories we had after.. lol.. ask zhi.. this year 2009.. most probably we'd be stuck at home.. facing the 4 walls.. and my lovely books.. after all.. EOS.. OSPE and OSCE would be so near.. more torture and hardships i have to endure.. this is my life.. and it's not easy being me..

it's been some months since i have considered and planned to do stuff for children.. i'll be teaching tuition at an orphanage tmr.. and most probably the next few coming days and weeks as UPSR is approaching.. after UPSR.. i have made it a point to have constant weekend visits.. it's not easy to keep a commitment.. sacrifice.. that's what makes ppl happy..? but i'll do it nonetheless.. it's just me.. i'm a small girl with big dreams.. i hope to accomplish the dream of having a super huge fundraising programme to raise funds for them.. or toys and clothes.. just imagine.. this orphange i'd be going to consists of 32 children.. in a small tiny house.. the whole of malaysia would have at least 300 orphanages..? do some simple maths.. 900 over kids without love or care.. as much as i want to give more.. i can't.. i'm alone.. powerless.. but i'll still do my best..

teaching tuition to students who i barely know.. or who i can barely converse with would be a great trial to me.. i never liked trials.. or difficulties.. i always want things easy going.. never changing.. but some circumstances can't be foretold.. this is one huge challenge i have to face.. and i have to win it no matter what.. it's about 32 lives.. 32 futures.. not mine alone.. i have to do it no matter how hard.. how challenging.. how tiring.. and again how sacrificial i have to be..

chocolates.. that's all i yearn for now.. it makes me happy..! i'm really really sleepy right now.. cuz i haven't been having proper sleep for the past few weeks.. thanks to exams.. and stress.. and some other stuff.. so i'm kinda bleary eyed now.. yawnnnsssss..

sometimes.. i just wish my life was a fairy tale dream.. as corny as it may seem.. i guess i don't mind being a princess.. who leaves in a castle.. with pretty flowers and gardens.. and beautiful dresses.. just awaiting for a brand new life.. a brand new excitement everyday.. it'll be so lovely.. i never fancied flowes much.. to me.. it's just a waste of money.. rather ppl keep it for themselves and buy stuff they really want.. but now i'm starting to appreciate the beauty in them.. and i everything else.. i want white roses.. (hint hint) after some things that has happened in the past.. i'm just more appreciative of life..

life briefs candle..! one of william shakespear's famous compositions.. one we studied in form 1..? life is short.. it can go off any moment.. like the candle melting away.. when the wind blows.. it might just go off.. so i shall live each day as if it were my last.. and give ppl more of what i can give.. even if it eats up my time.. or if it hurts like crazy.. giving.. haha.. i'm just stupid i guess.. dumb dumb me.. as dumb as can be..

it's weird to just cut complete contact from a once was best friend.. somehow.. it just feels like.. there's no one to listen to my frets and complaints.. or my joys and laughters.. the many things i've been going through lately.. are all kept inside.. deep deep down.. best friends are ppl we can really trust.. ppl we can totally submit to.. ppl we can share with.. ppl we can depend on to counsel us when we're down and in doubt.. someone i could just cry to without feeling embarassed.. ppl who can tell us what is right.. what is good for us.. to be happy for whatever life we live in.. but some best friends are just not who they seem to be.. some are.. a pain..?

it's time for me to bunk.. the bed is calling me.. and all the toys and my lovely companion.. blinky.. they are the ones who accompanied me through these months of studying and pure torture.. blinky needs a bath.. C= hope everything goes well with me and the kids tmr.. wish me luck in helping them find a better future.. a better life.. a better environment.. to feel loved and cared for.. peace to the whole world.. smiles for all the lovely beings out there.. zzzs for me.. i need strength and a bit of encouragement to get through the days pls..! hugs for all..

after a looooooooooooooooooooooooong time.. hehe

2009-06-10T23:15:00.004+08:00

hello to every soul out there.. i kinda forgot my blog's url.. how it looked like.. and even whether this exists or not.. the last i posted was a year ago..? okay.. i apologise to all my faithful readers out there..

LIFE.. in the past one year has been.. interesting..? MANY circumstances occured.. my life has changed tremendously in ALL aspects.. i've learnt that life is not indeed wat it is.. ppl are not who we think they truly are.. those once upon a time close to us have changed.. (well.. everyone wears masks..) BUT i shall not be emo-ing here cuz life right now is wonderful beyond imagination.. so much for the fairy tale dream i'm living right now.. unexpected expections..

in 2 weeks time.. this blog shall be dead for anth semester.. my life again shall be down in the pits.. i think i'd prefer the pitty life that's just around the corner than what i'm having right now.. yea.. i'm weird.. queer.. dumb..?? that's just because life right now lacks tribulation.. lacks excitement and activity.. it's mundane and boring.. basically i'm just complaining about how bored and lifeless i am right now.. for once.. i say.. i love studying.. i miss the 15 hours of marathon studying.. i miss puffy eyes.. i miss falling sick.. i miss exhaustion.. i miss all those horrible things..

i can't wait for classes to resume..!! new trials.. new friends..!! new changes..!! and definitely a new life..!! winks.. lotsa things happened throughout this whole month.. exams ended.. results released which'll lead to a whole new nerdy life mystifying myself with "the cardiovascular system" in the coming semester..

a whole semester of studying about the physical heart.. blood vessels.. blood.. cardiac muscles.. learning weird medical terms.. i guess it'll be a killer.. BUT i'm so gonna love it and think positive..!! i hope i'll be able to understand why some ppl can be so heartless as well.. i wonder how they survive without a heart.. if u feel a pinch while reading this.. yea.. i'm referring to you..

i grew older..!! which is what i really want.. i don't care if i'm old or haggard.. or if guys stop giving the eye.. i wanna grow older and older and older and die.. haha.. that's life.. i wish time would fly faster..

i just descovered smth really weird.. a friend of mine from primary school is gonna get married at the end of the year after she completes her degree.. and i've been invited..!! how cool is that.. haha.. again.. i'll get to dress up..!! congrats to her and that lucky guy..

right now.. at this moment.. alot of things don't matter anymore.. i've learnt new lessons in life.. i've gained so so so much knowledge bout ppl and their true selves.. now i know trust is smth so small yet so big.. it just took a year to make me realise in this world there are so many different kinds of ppl.. thus.. i shall be more careful in the future.. sobs..

okay.. this latest post ends here.. if u wanna noe more about my current where abouts just call or msg me la.. i'm lazy to blog.. cuz it's boring.. oh oh.. anyone who wants to date me pls feel free too.. weeee.. i'm available anytime anywhere.. tataz to the whole world..

sigh.. 1 and a half years later..

2008-06-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

this is the end.. the end of almost everything.. one and a half years had just passed me by so quickly.. there were plenty of lovely moments.. but there were some that weren't as pleasing as they seemed to be..

finally a heavy burden has been lifted off my shoulders.. but yet another one is on it's way.. a levels is gone.. chemistry classes are gone.. bio.. gone.. math.. gone.. and of course.. physics.. they're all gone..

it feels.. weird.. not having anything to study at the moment.. i feel like i'm wasting my time away.. *true nerd talk*

one and a half years of math..! it is alright i guess.. but i'll definitely miss mr. khoo.. his way of speech.. where is tends to pull the last syllabul extra long.. as in junyiiiiii.. and his free massages.. he is the one and only.. or ms. aw.. stats had always been boring.. oh well.. but not as bad as mechanics.. mr. anuar.. lol.. i think up to date.. our class fund only has RM1.. and i wonder where zhi kept it.. C= but thanks to kee.. i had been able to survive through it..

next up is bio.. ms jas.. lol.. brings back wonderful memories.. of how we were so afraid of her in the first term.. cuz her intoduction itself was really scary.. but after two terms.. we finally got the fun side of her.. and some of us.. (ahem) even had the guts to msg in her class.. she is my fav lecturer nontheless.. cuz she's so cool.. i love her.. except for the boring bio lessons.. the plant growth thingy and recombinant DNA thingy.. ALMOST.. but did not fall asleep in her class.. thus.. i'm not guilty..! C=

chemistry..! mr. yeap.. i will definitely miss the lab times.. when sarah.. erah.. xin yi.. and i would be scrambling hard to keep up with the experiments due to the time factor.. we were once upon a time the best team mates ever huh.. copying each others readings and discussing the answers during mock practical.. taking pictures of the cool colours from the reactions.. befores and afters.. forgetting to bring the cloth.. or lab manual.. and sticking to my 3 laws.. which i can't really remember what they were.. you see.. it was spontaneous.. but i do remember one though.. winks.. oh.. and playing along with mr yeaps taunts.. of how short i am.. and his sueper lame jokes.. ahh.. those were the good old days..

last but not least.. physics.. our FAVOURITE sub.. who doesn't like physics..? we all LOVE it so much.. pls note the sarcasm.. especially lab classes.. ugh.. brings back.. erm.. wonderful memories.. running about the classroom trying to get answers from the smarter ppl.. but most of the time.. to no avail.. so our last resort.. was.. mr. lee himself.. his PRETTY handwritting made life so much EASIER.. hence.. phys lab classes usually ended late.. and how can i forget his jokes.. and when he cracks jokes he never smiles or laughs.. and we'll all be.. should we laugh or not..? was that meant to be a joke..? and i always go.. okaaaaaaaay..

plus.. i'll surely remember my exam buddies.. billie.. vishvesh.. yurkdes.. jin ern.. so many many more..

sigh.. it's over.. over.. over.. one and a half years of wonderful times together with my 6 sistaz.. (zhi.. huey.. dee.. char.. jim.. kee..) and of course my college buddies.. sarah and erah.. i am so gonna miss them.. well.. all good things must come to an end.. and this.. is the end.. the end of something.. is the begining of another.. C=

eeeee.. bored..

2007-06-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

okay.. exams are finally over.. and i'm back.. sorry kor.. hehe.. haven't been online for quite some time.. and today.. i'm finally back into action.. hmm.. onlining is kind of a drag.. sigh.. oh well.. for the sake of ppl like Mr. Tan Chee Weng and Mr. Brandon Lim Wei Jin.. i will try my best to put up some stuff..

hmm.. exam lasted the whole of last week.. me and zhi wei were counting down til the 8th of june.. and finally.. it came and went.. sigh.. exams were pretty tough.. paper1 was difiicult.. but managed to scrape through for paper2.. will be sitting for SAT and TOEFL soon.. hope i will do really really well.. fingers crossed..

was really tired on friday.. slept at 3 the following night.. and woke up at 6.30.. had to attend Mr. Lee's extra class.. we did not exactly pay attention.. ahem.. sorry cher.. too excited about the exam being the last.. zhi wei and i were busy planning what to do after exams.. hehe.. guilty.. sigh..

cut the story short..

exams ended.. it was raining really heavily.. so sarah.. erah.. zhi wei and i braved the rain to the bus stop.. we were all wet.. and when we finally got into the bus we were drenched.. as dumb as we were.. we sillied oursleves by fighting the rain to get to the bus stop when we could actually wait at the car park of wisma help to board the bus.. sigh.. we left before changi and jim but i have no idea why they reached main block before we did.. lol..

we "celebrated" changi's farewell.. it was pretty sad.. only jimmy.. zwei.. chang and i.. took quite some time deciding what to makan.. and as usual ended up in pizza hut.. they odered 4 pizzas and as expected.. there were lots of left overs.. so we decided to ta pao for kee hao who was going to watch shrek with ming and i.. chang didn't believe kee hao could finish the left overs.. but he did.. and i'm so proud of him.. lol..

met ming at gsc.. but he couldn't get the 4.40 ticket.. so we headed for tgv.. and got the 5.20 tix.. ming and i had a chat.. and he kept on complaining about how he hated foundation in help.. poor guy.. sigh.. kee hao finished the pizzas before the movie even started.. amazing.. hehe.. the movie was really great.. afterall.. i haven't seen ming for a long time.. so it was quite a good chance for us to catch up on life.. after the movie i went looking for joycey and we headed home in mommy's car.. she bought charmaine shoes.. omg.. i want too..!

guess that's pretty much after my exams.. weee.. wed will be going to lagoon.. can't wait.. C=

ppl of A 49 (A)

2007-04-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

okay.. I'm back.. i have been negleting my bloggie but here i am once again.. Thanks for reminding me bout this blog again kor..

Hmm.. things have not been going on smoothly in college.. though i must admit.. now.. i'm kinda use to the people in my class.. C= And thanks to Zhi Wei.. I have yet to become a nerd by finding ourselves in OU quite often.. Sonia.. The girl who always cheers me up with one of her HUGE hugs.. *HuGs*.. (oooh.. and her sandal situation.. lol..) kk.. Not to leave out Erah.. My cool dressie pal.. hmm.. we TRY to wear the same colour everyday..! Oh.. and Sarah of course.. how could i leave her out..? Sarah..? Her actions remind me to study every now and then.. and of course.. what books to bring the next day.. C=

Going on to joy joy(joyce) and eshy(eshana).. My Thursday lunch and lepaking pals.. They love going to Mama's kitchen.. though i don't know why.. haha.. Hmm.. oh.. and the TWINS.. they speak childishly and that suits my chidish side..! aiks.. and so many more..! i could go on and on.. so now i'm going on to the guys.. This is REALLY interesting.. (lol..)

Firstly.. obviously.. is Sammy.. The most responsible class rep ever.. (He even reminds us of venues.. stuff to bring and things like that on MSN.. He reminds it through the personal msg thingy.. haha..) Oh.. And my dear dear changi..! the airport.. lol.. which is Chang Feng btw.. he had me open my eyes to a whole new belian world.. a really funny guy who obeys most of my demands.. and made me realise that belianians aren't that bad afterall.. Next is Eddy.. My radio friend.. and PR man.. haha.. always walking around with ear phones and calling me "cute little JUN YI".. eddy dy.. get it right the next time ya.. lol.. All in all the belian guys from my class are real gentlemens.. Thanks to Sammy.. Changi and Jin Ernie.. i have doors opened for me(hands full or not.. such sweet guys..) Keep up the good work ppl.. C=

Now.. It's Chessy(Chesvin).. Yurki(Yurkdesh) and Vishyveshi(Vishvesh).. My funniest pals.. chssy jokes but doesn't laugh.. so like mr. lee.. haha.. Yurki speaks and laughs at the same time.. so you won't understand what he is trying to say.. haha.. And the best is vishvesh.. the class clown.. he never has stationary or books.. and claim that everything of ours is his.. lol.. even the duster.. haha.. Mr. Khoo loves him..! C= Together with Jin Ern they form a circus.. aiks.. and i left out Jim Jim(jimmy)..nice guy who loves giving me positive comments.. lol.. except for the studying part.. he claims i don't study..! i do jimmy.. just that you study so much you think i don't study at all.. Oh.. and he is Mr. Ling's son.. (the joke is getting old ppl..) lol..

All in all.. the ppl in my class aren't that bad.. (with some exceptions about the "movie" thingy.. eeyer.. hmph..) kk.. gtg now.. have to study for my mocks next week..! again.. thanks for putting it as ur msn personal msg sam.. Maths.. 25/4 and 30/4.. rite.. see ya ppl soon.. i'll try to update as kerap as possible la.. haha..

27-02-07

2007-03-02T18:16:00.000+08:00

12.00a.m.
my phone jammed with messages.. (the first was huey wen..) it "hung" and the screen went blank.. C= but after awhile.. it was okay.. yay..! few minutes later.. my phone rang..! great.. just when i was about to fall asleep.. a foreign number.. who else..? kor..! he said that everyone in the US was rushing home at that hour and he was about to drive back but called me instead.. (thanks kor..) horrible singing i had to bear with but he claims that he will be the next American Idol.. lol.. we chatted for about 15 minutes and i went to snooze.. i have 8 o'clock lectures the next day le..!

6.20a.m.
Aiks.. overslept.. rushed about the house doing stuff and packing my books.. looking around frantically for my lab coat.. cooing Trix not to leave the house.. fed her breakfast.. sigh.. another normal school day.. (so i thought..)

7.05a.m.
Visited granny dearest and had breakfast there.. she gave me my 18th birthday "ang pao" and hurried me off for class.. thanks grans.. love ya loads..

7.40a.m.
arrived at wisma HELP.. uhoh.. forgot which floor the class was.. so i went to almost every floor to check it out.. but it turned out that my first guess was right.. hehe.. 7th.. i climed 6 floors man.. and found Xin Yi at the lift area.. she was so shocked to see me exit from the staircase and screamed Happy Birthday the moment she saw me.. erh..? so the both of us headed to the classroom and found only Eddy there.. fine.. i knew something was not right.. it was 7.45 and only Eddy was there.. Then Xin Yi left me and Eddy and i had a chat about the sms convo we had the night before.. (i still don't know who that person is Eddy..!)

8.00a.m.
yayers.. some of my class ppl entered.. and i wondered.. why was almost everyone wearing purple.. i only made a deal with Zhi Wei and gang.. how come even Shreen, Sam, Jimmy and the others were purple too.. something is really not right..! few seconds later Zhi Wei arrived.. first time she entered class late.. weird..
the plot thickens.. (lol)
suddenly.. the lights went off.. great.. i thought the bulb fused or something.. some screamed..! haha.. then the door opened and in came John Wong.. CARRYING A CAKE..! with candles.. and fire.. lol.. then he started to sing Happy Birthday.. and the others joined in.. i was so so so surprised..! i never knew John could be that sweet.. then i realised.. he arrived to school at 7.15 just to get everything done..! i'm so touched ppl.. btw.. this was planned by John and Zhi Wei.. But according to Zhi Wei.. John was the mastermind.. very soon.. after the song was done.. and candles blown.. Mr. Yeap came in.. and classes started.. cake untouched..!

9.40a.m.
Mr. Yeap left the classroom with a smirk on his face.. lol.. i know that smile.. it means nothing nice.. but anyway.. we had cake after that.. i got the "junyi" part.. but it was kind of distorted.. lol.. all 32 of us had cake for breakfast.. Erah didn't because she was on a diet.. (sob..) i got the "car" from the tree and Jon Hiu presented me with the "coconut tree".. aiks.. okay.. all exitement was over.. time to procced to the bio lab.. oh.. we saved a piece of cake with "balloons" on top for Ms. Jeslider.. C=

..cutting things short..
we had a fun bio lesson.. experiment.. did it with Sarah and everything got mixed up.. i did one thing and she did the same.. so we were both so blur.. then we went on to math class..!! MATH.. Mr. Khoo.. bleh.. Eddy blurted out to him that it was my birthday.. and he started to give me "that smile".. he said that my birthday present was all the questions on the board.. thanks to John Lee.. i got a bigger birthday present..! Oh.. Mr. Khoo gave me a paper clip too.. no idea why.. he just walked pass and put it on the book i was writing on.. lol.. Then the class sang happy birthday again along with Mr. Khoo.. C=

Fine fine.. met Han Jun before math class at the stairway.. HE SNEAKED IN.. we were class-less for about half an hour.. so we hung out at the staircase and took many pics.. oh.. and a Purple People Picture.. haha.. After class.. we left for the main block.. Han Jun was supposed to find us a place to makan.. as suspected.. he didnt.. so Clement did the finalising.. and we went to Pizza Hut.. (ugh..) they shared to buy a piece of cake.. which was SO huge.. and Eddy kept bragging that he owns the biggest share of it.. hahaha.. I forced Zhi Wei to accompany me.. cuz the rest of them were guys.. those present were.. erm.. Sam.. Asher..Danny.. Chang Feng.. Han Jun.. Eddy.. Weng Khye.. Clement and Zhu Lian.. Yurkdes and the others were at the other table.. and were as noisy as us.. aiks.. again.. they sang happy birtdhay.. twice.. and once in chinese.. hahaha.. so embarassing le.. C=

All in all.. it was a really great day.. and i just realised how wonderful and sweet my friends could be.. LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS..!! *muacks* aiks.. fine.. i admit.. the ppl in A49 (A) maybe nerdy.. but you guys are definitely sweet.. hugs ppl.. C=

join us for the mission trip ppl..!

2007-02-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with my grammar today.. so just ignore the mistakes.. sorry ya..

aiks.. so chinese new year is officially over for me.. no more visiting.. no more ang pao receiving.. no more mum-muming.. well.. i have been negleting this bloggie for a long long time.. so i guess it's time for some updates.. today was cny.. yesterday was the reunion dinner thingy.. this year reunion dinner was somewhat different from last year.. cuz we usually have it at granny's.. yesterday we had it in some hotel in KL.. forgot where le.. (bleh.. more specific details on my other bloggie..)

Well.. as for today.. we did the exact same stuff we did last year.. went to po po's house first.. and had food.. heard loads of nagging from kenneth bout not being culturous.. the reason for his nagging was because we had western plus malay food for lunch.. and i was wearing black.. C= then proceeded to granny's house.. collected ang paos and had mummum.. after about 45 minutes.. we went home.. and i slept from 3 to 5.30.. piggy me.. then i woke up and mummy rushed me to take my bath before we went to aunty huey's house in klang.. same same stuff we did.. mummum steam boat and nasi lemak.. cake.. tarts.. biscuits.. aiks.. die de.. sure put on lotsa weight.. trix went too..! sar kor brought her along.. so we all were eating and playing with trix at the same time.. after awhile.. some aunty from US called back.. then she asked us to go online and spoke through the web cam.. i don't think i have met her before.. but nevermind la.. afterall.. she is only my dad's cousin.. C= then her kids were on.. they spoke with the american accent.. it sounded so.. urgh..

Bleh.. i dunno le.. i think that chinese new year this year is for me to hibernate.. haha.. i've been really lethargic and fatigue since college started.. haiz.. so chinese new year has always been the same.. tmr my parents are going to kuantan to visit some grandaunty.. and i'm staying put.. so i'll have the house all to myself.. maybe some friends will be staying over to make sure i'm safe..? they said i may play with fire and stuff.. such dong dongs.. i hope hann comes..! then we can watch scary movies and stay awake the whole night..! lol.. haiz.. bored nuts..

i can't wait for the 25th of february..! cuz i'd be spending my sunday in ulu langat..! weee.. it's a mission trip and i'm so excited..! i hope to make the best out of this trip.. i'm sure i can learn lots of stuff from the orang asli's way of living.. so i have been busy sorting out the stuff i wanna bring for them.. they say we have some hiking to do.. first time in my life..! i think it is a great opportunity for me to learn something new.. i know after this trip i'm sure to change alot.. better still.. i'd be sacrificing the weekend before my birthday to help those in need instead of hanging out with friends and spending the cash i don't need which would in return be useful for them..! i feel so so HAPPY..! i don't know why.. but i just feel like helping them.. i've seen these people often.. but.. i never had the chance to do something for them.. i used to just watch them suffer.. but on the 25th.. there will be some action going on.. things will never be the same again for me.. I CAN'T WAIT..! i'm so so so so excited.. finally.. i am able to do something for the community.. playing with the children.. talking with the oleder folks.. singing.. dancing..! (tembo dancing..!!!!) weeee.. jin ern and sam said they would be doing games and playing the guitar..! heyeee..! i wanna play the piano.. but too big le.. lol.. so i may be tembo dancing instead..!!

anyone interested to join us you can come to me for details..!! if you guys have stuff to donate you can contact me too..! better still.. if you guys are free on that day.. JOIN US..! i'm sure this trip will change our lives.. many of the children need our company more than our gifts..! please try to come..! it's gonna be a blast..!! C=

never ever going for count down in ou again..!!

2007-01-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

this post shall be a reminder to me so that i will never go for count down in one utama again.. sigh.. too many scary stories to be told..!! one lesson i've learnt.. never ever doubt your sixth sense.. it's a long story.. haizz.. but it really freaked me out.. but thanks to chee wei, jin hong and some other guy.. we were pretty safe.. (in a way..C=) never knew i would be counting down with them.. along with some freako breathing down my neck.. just thinking of it makes me shiver.. and i kena spray dunno how many times by this guy i don't even noe.. the first happened at 9 something.. then me and kt got away and then dunno how the fela found us and kena spray another time.. basically.. me and kt didn't really get to watch the performances cuz we were busy avoiding that guy with the spray and those few foreigners that were "somehow" always behind us.. sigh.. so unfair.. only i kena spray by the fellow.. kt didn't kena at all..
this went on for 6 or 7 times when i finally got so irritated.. i asked for his name.. (lol.. didn't dare confront him or something cuz scared of the fellows spray thingy..) i think he said his name was chen hoe or something like that.. studying in brickfields.. haizz.. but then.. dunno how we avoided him and ended up losing him.. weee.. after the count down and stuff.. we went into the mall and got lost.. lol.. first time losing myself in a mall..

sigh.. today.. me went to college for the orientation day thingy..it was BAD.. really BAD.. and i hated it.. so much.. so boring.. with no friends.. sigh.. entered the administration place and met up with andrew and jun xuen they all.. while lining up i saw Donny.. and his baseball cap.. lol.. (ahem.. you can see something "shaved" on his head.. lol..) and i didn't realise aunty pik yee was there too..!! haha.. says donny was scared of the person doing the resgistration.. she was so "amazed" to see me there.. make that shocked+surprised+glad+some other feelings.. you should have seen how she reacted.. seeing me there was like meeting her long lost friend or something like that.. what to do.. haha.. known them for all my life de.. since i was 1..? me and donny are always ending up in the same places.. doing the same thing and stuff like that.. same school.. same class.. same cell.. same tuition.. same band.. same activities in school.. same church.. now same college..? sigh.. though he is some sort of my childhood.. family.. church friend.. we never actually had a serious chat before.. yep.. believe that.. we have known each other for over a decade plus a few more years.. he used to be known as the "sumersault master" in church.. always envied him.. but we never actually had a proper conversation before.. merely the "hi-bye".. "fetch me home".. "tmr practice" type of convo.. but i kinda like it that way.. and i hope it remains that way.. cool wei.. i just realised.. i'd be seeing him until i'm old and haggard.. haha.. thats what he said..

waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.. i really wanna cry myself silly de.. (me need a huggy..=C) i just realised.. i don't have a friend who is doing A levels.. was all alone today.. i'm so gonna be alone in the future.. (hope not..) i don't want to be alone.. must have someone to teman me.. or else i'd feel really sad.. and bored.. haizz.. noelle.. must teman me for go lunch everyday k..? haiz.. WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.. why are our classrooms so far away..? sobs..

The END of something.. is the BEGINING of another..

2006-12-30T14:57:00.000+08:00

I just finished reading the end of "The End" which in a way is really the end of Lemony Snickets' series.. Though the end is not quite the end because many of the endings are not clear.. lol.. Haizz.. this is what happens when you have nothing to do.. me.. I raid my sisters shelf for kiddy books and i came across "The End".. this kiddy title caught my eye.. And after all it is the end of 2006 and so many many other things.. this book is in fact quite thick but i managed to finish it in less than 2 hours.. skipped all his utter nonsense.. if you have read that book you'd know what i meant.. all full of noths.. bleh..

So here i am.. commenting on The End.. Not as in the book but.. Oh well.. as i type this now.. i finally understand that this is the end of one of the chapters in my life.. The End of school life.. The end of uniforms.. Just this morning.. Rui Zhe called me up for a chat.. So we had a short talk.. And he asked if he could have my sejarah book.. I was more than glad to give it to him.. But then.. i realised that i won't be seeing him again.. and so many many juniors.. sobs.. I am not even over with 2005 yet.. so many sweet memories have yet to settle down.. now 2006 is coming to an end.. and i can't digest them just yet.. but it somehow will with time.. sigh.. i miss the seniors.. so many of them i have not seen in over a year.. some have became pretty arrogant and cold but i still love them nevertheless.. and the juniors.. rui zhe.. james.. zen keng.. suzzane.. arlene.. keith.. karina.. and so many many more.. miss you guys loads..! and of course.. me classmates and me buddies.. haizz.. So DU isn't that bad after all as said by a certain "senior".. who claims that he hates DU with his whole heart.. cuz i have met hundreds of really wonderful ppl there.. uhuh..

It is also The End to our lovely lovely teachers.. Pn. Tan GT..!! no more lepaking around to do stuff for her.. man.. i miss that.. Won't ever forget her naggy naggy self.. she can go on and on regarding a certain topic without getting bored of it.. i still remember how she talked about "kata kerja transitif" for almost 2 periods.. she tends to make something so simple like that difficult for us to understand..? lol.. but on the other hand she is really cool cuz she allows us to use a phone in class.. like when she asked me to use my phone to call some school in Bandar Sri Damanara cuz she forgot to bring her phone..!! haha.. Oh and the add math teacher.. so according to noelle and my stats.. she somehow.. never fails to phrase "faster.. faster.." at least 4 times in one period.. Not leaving out Pn. Ching.. she is really nice.. in a way.. though boring in another.. and hated by 4 keledang.. since.. ever..? at least she is a wee bit more interesting than Mr. Ho.. aww man.. i miss the teachers too..!!

Oh.. and not ever forgeting CF.. well.. it is The End of SMDUCF for me.. Though it is not registered.. the members are still as active as ever.. meeting in school every morning for morning prayer.. (skipped most of it.. hehe..) friday afternoons at Jeremy's..(attended most of it..!!) Sigh.. Back in 2005.. when noelle and i would take our own sweet time walking to 5 Meranti.. Chee Woh and i would be fighting with the others to stand under the fan.. and us laughing at noelle who is not allowed to stand with us cuz she is a commitee.. trying to skip ice breakers by walking around the school and going behind the school to buy sweets while noelle had to stay back to conduct the ice breakers.. and we scribbled lyrics on the board comparing whos handwriting was better.. mine..!! miss those days yea..? And when 2006 came.. CF could no longer be held in school.. so jeremy opened his house and we walked there every friday.. under the blazing sun.. This year.. i played most of the games cuz no buddy for me to lepak and skip the ice breakers with anymore.. sobs.. but the time spent was even more fulfilling for i finally knew what it felt like to be with a bunch of crazy ppl.. thanks to jin ern and tat ren.. the clowns of CF.. they made things around more cheerful and fun.. i miss the singing and word.. and the activities.. and jeremy's piano.. played on it once for Donny to hear.. and our long walks from school to jeremy's house along with rui zhe and james.. sigh.. those days have came to a pass.. well.. i will forever cherish these moments spent at CF for they are the most memorable parts of school life for me.. through CF i have learnt many things that i could never have learnt in school.. and also whacky, crazy friends who i will never ever forget.. SMDUCF rocks man..!! hugs and kisses for all..

Here i want to say The End to my wonderful korkor.. CHEE WENG..! You were always there for me when i needed you.. Always helping me with add math.. though i didn't really understand.. but i still appreciate it nonetheless.. The End to our times spent at Kalifah.. The End to our shoe shopping spree.. The End to your teaching me how to drive "illegaly".. The End to so many other stuff we did during the past..!! Your leaving for US leaves a big impact in my life.. i have never met someone who is as caring, understanding and loving as you.. Though sad.. me still is happy for you cuz you got a good job there.. buy me more hersheys when you come back.. and you better call me or send letters like last time..!! haha.. old fashioned.. It wasn't me who flooded Johor..!! i wouldn't cry that badly.. haha.. maybe its you instead..!! all the best in US.. Take care..!! hugs kor.. love ya..!!

Well.. All in all.. The End is definitely a sad ending.. so many things.. friends.. people.. moments.. and events that i'm sure to miss.. There are too many The Ends to list.. and if i ever list them down.. this post will go on forever and ever.. So i'll stop here..!! see ya..

Christmas.. wee..

2006-12-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

Bleh.. So christmas this year wasn't fun at all.. sigh.. Mind you.. It's a past tense.. which means.. christmas just ended.. well.. not exactly.. but yeah.. in a way.. for me.. it's over.. Kinda sick of the smell of christmas turkeys and the packed malls.. thank goodness this madness is over.. back to usual tmr..

I've been to the mall 4 days in a row.. 22nd.. 23rd.. 24th.. 25th.. sick of one utama.. on the 23rd.. me and mami went there to get presents.. last minute shoppers.. lol.. I suggested BG shirts for Kel, Keith, Mun Hoe, Sheng.. JV.. and some other ppl.. and i picked them..!! The colours according to my taste.. haha.. so expect something like blue or green.. lol.. went to aunt meng's house for bbq in the evening.. (again..?) reached there and saw me cuzzie bros working themselves silly.. spoke to them through the fence cuz i didn't want to kena the smoke.. lol.. then i mopped around without any purpose and just sat and dreamt.. no cuzzies for me to disturb cuz they were all busy.. fine.. hmph.. after awhile.. i got really bored.. and decided to be santy clause.. so me went around distributing the presents which was actually a kids job.. haha.. my cuzzie bros loved the presents.. haha.. duh.. it was picked by me.. oh.. i got ken this really really nice tie.. it's a metalic dark purplish tie.. i love it.. lol..

and then on went to the 24th.. went to church a little late.. and it was kinda packed.. stucked in one corner and was entertained by baby jake.. he is so so so so so cute.. burmese dad.. chinese mom.. love him so much.. all the while i held him and he was so very cute.. was scared by the amplifiers.. haha.. sooooo cute..!! Went to granny's for dinner again.. same food.. same atmosphere.. but different ppl.. cuz that day was on my dad's side.. haha.. makan.. then time to take ang pao off the tree.. yay..!! so the seven grandchildren each drew a number and took turns taking the ang paos off.. so funny.. i got number 6.. so i waited my turn.. poor me.. only two choices left.. Granny prepared 7 ang paos.. each containing different amount of money.. so we all feel feel and guess guess for the thickest one.. haha.. junyi.. FAILED.. no skill la.. every year also same.. lol.. then we went on to the presentation of presents by the grandchildren to the seven uncle and aunties who we kena.. before christmas.. every grandchild draws a name and is supposed to buy a present for the name we drew.. and i kena aunty luan eng and uncle ming.. haha.. bro kena sa kor and Trix.. lol.. then we all received presents from under the tree.. soon.. it became bear.. haizz.. presents were supposed to be given out on christmas day but changed in tradition cuz mami had to go to china on christmas morn..

went home.. helped mami pack.. reminded mami of what i wanted.. went online for awhile.. and went to sleep.. then in the middle of the night.. around 3 something.. mami came to say she was leaving liao.. so sad leh.. haha.. woke up early on christmas morning.. thinking.. "i have nothing to do today.." no life.. then i remembered.. had a date with ming.. ping.. and noel.. wanted to ask more ppl to join us in ou.. but too late ad.. so me and noel spent the day in ou.. walking around.. talking.. eating.. and catching up on old times.. we talked about how we were never gonna date guys who drinks and smoke like those we saw.. lol.. hmph..

then we went looking for Alex in Ms read.. Didn't dare to go in cuz.. i dunno why also..haha.. then while talking to Alex outside Ms. Read.. I saw.. JULIUS..!! Haha.. long time no see.. my friend from primary school.. he waved and we waved back.. then noel was hungry again and wanted to buy more food.. so we went to Giant and noel took such a long time choosing something to eat.. haha.. Then noel came to my house and we hung around in my room.. chatting again.. mostly about ppl.. lol.. nothing bad.. no worries.. looked at old photographs.. felt sad.. and happy at the same time.. played with the hair band.. lying around on the ground.. just like lost times.. sigh.. so sad.. no noelle in college.. oh man.. then we went online.. me and noelle "toyed" with her msn personal msg.. if you've seen it then u wud noe.. haha.. she busied herself wishing all her online contacts a merry christmas.. me just watched.. and observed..

sigh.. basically.. christmas was spent like this.. nothing much actually.. this is the boring-est christmas ever.. but in a way.. accopmlishing.. sigh.. somehow.. there is no more thrills and joy in presents opening.. it's just not there anymore.. anyway.. thanks for the well wishes.. the dinners and lunches.. the presents.. and the FLOWERS.. (so inappropriate) haha.. thanks ya.. really really appreciate it..

"While you were away.. many things happened and changed.. some for the better.. some for the worse.. and the differences between us is just unmendable.. you have your ways and i have mine.. so i guess we will just have to live the way our life is.. and not step into each others path.. i really hope that one day you would see the light and know what's right.. which will eventually.. lead to understanding.."

It feels like it just happened yesterday..

2006-12-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

What i mean is.. It feels like SPM just ended yesterday and i am not back into the mood of studying yet.. But then.. Daddy says i have to enter college as soon as possible and that means in January.. Well.. Today mummy and i went to HELP to ask about some college stuff.. In less then an hour.. We somehow finalised that i am to study in HELP.. And so according to mummy.. I should study A levels and thats that.. dead.. another year and a half of math, chem, phys and bio.. haih.. this time in english..? uhoh.. not inclined yet.. Sheng said that A levels is very difficult.. and he is like so smart but he says it's difficult.. hmm.. may plan to take up another extra sub.. ENGLISH LIT..!! lol.. again..? Aiks.. i hope i'd know some people there.. so i won't feel so lonely.. sob.. but no noel.. sobs..

Haiz.. Don't want to think about that now.. And i just realised.. Christmas is just less than 3 days away.. And i'm so blur.. i thought that christmas wasn't here until another 2 or 3 weeks.. Aiks.. uhoh.. i haven't bought presents for the people i kena yet.. Haizz.. Too bad for them.. Will do some last minute shopping on christmas day itself.. Sorry la..

Me have been wrapping loads and loads of presents for the past 2 days.. and tying so many ribbons yesterday.. Enough of wrapping for one year.. i am so sleepy.. Yesterday Ms Wendy said that she would be coming at 8a.m. today for my piano lessons.. who on earth has piano lessons at such an unearthly hour..? Me.. Reluctantly i agreed.. Well.. i didn't really enjoy piano lessons this morning because i was so drowsy.. but then.. i had too.. have to get ready for exams.. haizz.. Grade 8 exam is even more stressful than SPM.. Can i not take it..? i hate the melodiless pieces.. sounds like the clock ticking away instead of something like "mirage d' amore".. love that song loads.. and another one.. but can't remember the french name.. Oh well.. at least it has a melody and it has a really romantic tune.. wee.. So according to korkor.. i always compose romantic songs because i have no life.. haha.. who doesn't like romantic tunes..? They're so.. nice..? lol..

Christmas.. me love christmas.. It is always that time of the year when you feel so happy.. But this year.. I feel so tired and worn out.. haizz.. Need to get out of the house more often.. So someone asked me what christmas is all about and why the giving away of presents and dinners.. Hmm.. Lets just put it this way.. Christmas is the season to love.. Why love..? This is the time we can get together as a family and with friends to share and give something we have or don't to others.. After all.. giving is better than receiving and giving is definitely a form of loving.. Thats why.. Okay.. it's a bit complicating and i don't know how to explain stuff.. Don't ask me to explain it out either 'cause i'm not rhetoric.. bleh..

Haizz.. Later me pals and family members will be coming over for dinner.. weee.. eh.. i made some of the stuff okay.. hmph.. And they are EDIBLE..!! Well.. Thats what i think though.. If it's not then too bad la.. lol.. Wait.. Just remembered.. forgot to blog about prom and the kempas bbq party and the long long rehearsals i had.. sigh.. too much to blog leh.. Hmm.. summarize..

Prom.. was okay.. But i was bored the whole while.. Took many pics with me pals.. Had dinner.. chatted with friends and marvelled at how that was the first time wei ching and pei shan wore a skirt.. C= so surprising.. But it was fun anyway.. Huang Ming's dad sent me and Wei Liong to my house and then we waited for Wei Liong's dad to pick him up..He left around 1.30 and me went to sleep..

Kempas BBQ party.. was okay.. It was supposed to be wl's birthday thingy btw.. but dunno what happened.. It became a Kempas party.. Most of the kempasians were there.. But some were not.. Bored without noel.. My buddy wherever i go.. lol.. Wl said to bring something.. and i didn't noe what to bring.. so i baked a cake with my own two little hands.. Took so much time and effort.. But it was worth it.. They all loved it and Donny having eaten it for years before scoffeled almost the whole thing.. lol.. Then some of them went to play in the pool while jess, ching yee and i stayed to BBQ and somehow chatted about almost everything under the sun.. Basically.. It was okay..

And rehearsal.. Tiring.. No more for me next year.. So may dances.. and piano pieces.. Sometimes you have to know that i am not a human dinamo.. Lol.. They got me so tired and i actually told them that and they felt bad.. haha.. when i make them feel bad.. Sweets will pile up.. and they will make dumb dumb stories to cheer me up.. And i'm happy now.. I can even dance more dances and play more pieces.. lol..

So i guess thats all that happened since i last blogged.. Hmm.. Maybe there will be more when christmas comes.. Wee.. I love christmas.. Who doesn't..?

me so tired.. me so bored..

2006-12-08T22:59:00.001+08:00

me exams just ended yesterday.. for the first time in my entire life i felt so relieved.. well.. i woke up a little late that is around 8.45 on a thursday morning.. i actually forgot about the BK exam for a whole 10 minutes.. me took me own sweet time playing with Trix and reading the papers.. and when it was 10.. i was like.. crap.. havn't touched Acts yet.. So me rushed and speed read through the whole book and managed to understand 1/4 of it.. (hehe) fine.. i finished reading the book around 11.48.. then proceeded to the sample questions and answers.. that took a whole hour.. glanced through Luke and concluded that there was no time to read another round.. make that memorising..

And so i was getting ready to go to school when Thash smsed me.. she was like.. "Arn't you coming?" At that moment i thought i was late and i thought that i had missed the exam.. lol.. but i just remembered.. the exam starts at 2 and not 1.30.. so me went to school.. it was pretty lonely.. not a soul in sight.. i was heading to the classrooms when i heard and saw someone waving frantically from the canteen.. oh.. It was Jin Ern.. So i went to join him and Yi Theng in the canteen.. yep.. it was only the three of us.. both of them were so panicky.. and when belianians are panicky.. somehow it will get to you too.. they were like asking each other stuff that i don't know.. and i was thinking sure die liaoz.. all of a sudden.. Bryan Chang came in.. i think he was the calmest of all.. he entered the school gates in a white exercising shirt and yellow shorts.. with a cap i think.. then he came up to us and Jin Ern was like "What on earth did you do..?" Dripping wet from head to toe.. he said he just went for futsal in the morning until just.. and i was like.. "what..?"

After awhile alison came along and sam called Yi theng.. which means.. time for exam.. so the five of u headed for the 5 kempas classroom.. while walking jin ern asked the calmest of us to say a prayer and so bryan went ahead.. i was practically shivering from head to toe.. and bryan had the courage to ask me what was wrong.. maybe i overreacted.. haha.. oh well.. before the exams sam said another fast prayer and since then i felt a little calmer.. then we went in for the exam.. believe me you would never want to take exams with them.. it's so pressuring.. Jin ern sat infront of me and yi theng by my side.. sam on the other and alison infront of him.. paul was infront of yi theng and so the 6 of us started the war.. but it ended well.. with one mangsa.. that's me.. i have no idea how i will do in the exam but i really hope for the best..

went home and stuck me fingers to the piano.. for 2 whole hours.. lol..

okay.. now for today.. me so tired.. woke up at 8.20 today and lazed around.. then pei shan smsed me and told me that the others were already at the LRT station.. and i was like.. "WHAT..?" rushed and had me bath and rushed to the LRT station.. i thought i was late and gonna kena marah ad.. so i tried my best to look sorry and headed for them.. mana tau.. Weng Khye even later than i.. What la.. so we waited for another 15 minutes for his arrival and another 15 minutes to get on to the bus.. then off we went.. us.. Wai Xiuan.. Yu Shien.. Weng Khye.. Papa.. me.. so panas in the bus and i learnt loads about inersia.. they were discussing about cicaks.. spiders.. grasshoppers.. cocroaches.. bla bla.. all the gross gross stuff..

When we reached pyramid.. we went for breakfast at Mcd's.. one ice milo for me and a Happy meal for papa.. the others had bubur.. lol.. then we went ice skating.. fine.. i dunno how to skate lar.. i only went once before this and was like about two years ago.. forgot ad.. before that.. i can't remember what i did.. well.. I couldn't balance me self and had to depend on the "trees" around me.. papa.. wx.. wk.. wl.. yw.. ys.. (go figure out who they are.. lazy to type) i was screaming the whole time and now my throat hurts.. we skated for almost 5 hours and then went to watch 1 missed call.. die lor.. i very the scared to watch scary movies.. but never mind.. pick up courage.. haha.. before the movie.. me and wl taught the others to dance outside the toilet..? the guys right leg first.. girls left leg first.. very easy wan lar..

again.. i was screaming throughout the movie.. at least got papa teman me this time.. kesian wl and wk.. haha.. aiks.. they say the killer looks like chia ling wor.. so i also abit scared liao.. somemore we used to be in the same class.. haha.. after the movie.. while i was still in a trauma.. cl sms me pulak.. got the fright out of my wits man.. haha.. then we went to the arcade and then went around looking for a coat that suits wl.. now my legs hurt.. aiks.. then they all when to ride the "horsie".. i want to ride horsie.. but must go genting.. weee.. next week gua.. haha..

after everything.. we squeezed into ys daddy's car.. 5 of us at the back.. so crammie.. then wk teman me go find me mummy and aunty then we went home.. lol.. now me so tired.. i wanna sleep but kena force to blog pulak.. eh.. ppl.. very the scary lar.. i cannot sleep tonight liaoz.. sobs.. i can feel something behind me.. oh man.. tomorrow going shopping for prom dress and prom stuff.. another tiring day ahead.. ME CAN'T SLEEP.. SCARED.. AND DON'T PLAY MISS CALL LA.. AND PLEASE DON'T DOWNLOAD THAT RINGTONE.. very the scared ad lar.. sobs.. gonna change me blogskin soon la.. haiz.. nite nite.. C=

Being Emotional..

2006-09-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

" Just when i thought you were not there.. You appeared again.. How i wish this is just a dream.. A dream with the ending created by me.."

It's a Friday night and i'm back to onlining.. I don't have much time to spare but i will sqeeze in the events that happened throughout the week as much as i can.. Well.. I'm being pretty emotional now.. Not to mention super de stressed.. Calling korkor now would be a bad idea cause he will be sitting for some "unimportant exam" tomorrow(so he claims)..

Sigh.. We will be sitting for another replacement trials next next week.. It is all their fault.. If only you guys never cheated that badly we wouldn't need to have another trial exam.. You see.. Throughout the week we were sitting fot the JPS paper.. And so.. The teachers decided to use it as our forcast results.. So many of them had the paper before the exam and not to mention the answer script as well.. Actually.. I'm kinda proud of myself.. At least i had the will power to withold from cheating.. Afterall you are only cheating yourself and God as well.. Nope.. This habit is definitely not in my nature.. You see what you guys have caused.. Trauma and stress to yourselves and me..!! Kiasuness man.. Sheesh..

The days are drawing near to SPM.. Its getting to my nerves.. Sleepness nights are countless.. So you can guess how bad my eye bags are.. Furtermore.. As we have to prepare for the next trials.. It means cutting down the time for my other two extra subs.. Sigh.. I planned to use these two months to brush up on my eng lit and BK.. So i guess my plans are going to be burnt up.. Thanks to you liars.. Sigh..

I finally decided that i'm going to do Lord of the flies as my novel instead of The river Between.. The main reason is because in The River Between there are MANY really dumb names that are so similar and confusing.. And the drama i'm focusing on will be Pygmallion.. Romeo and Juliet shall serve as a back up.. Oh yea.. I can't seem to find my Lord of the flies guide.. Maybe i will try searching for it tomorrow.. And as for BK.. i have yet to memorize anything.. Well.. I can't even remember the events and stuff.. Sigh.. Missing class almost every week is so no fun man.. Now i suffer.. You see.. I play many roles on Sundays.. Tell me.. Which would you choose.. Fulfilling your duty as a BK student or commiting your life to serve God in any appropriate ministry and attending church regularly? Maybe i shouldn't have signed up for that subject in the first place.. Sigh.. I think i will just sit there and cry on the day of the exam.. Wee.. at least BK is on the last day of SPM.. (When everyone else is done with theirs.. I will be stuggling my way through..)

Another problem is my grade 8 exam.. Sigh.. I just got the book today and i finally chose my first piece.. Believe me.. Its even more confusing than chem.. The position of your hand when you lift it.. The pressure on the keys.. The style you control the keys.. EVRYTHING matters.. Even the way you present youself.. Throughout this week i have been spending at least an hour a day at the piano.. Its my only way to relieve stress.. Besides complaining to mummy, daddy and trixie.. I love "Summers dream".. Its such a beautiful piece.. With lots of romantic phrases.. Don't think i will ever get bored of it..

Today.. I just realised that i have been very mean.. Oh well.. Some people deserve to be illtreated.. Hmph.. The ignoring people fever has returned.. Sigh.. Oh.. I just got a new nick name.. It is given by Han Jun.. He calls me mini dino or something like small Jun.. So i decided to give him a name too.. Its Dino Jun or big fat Jun.. C= All his smses starts with "Mini dino.." So i replied with "Big fat Dino.." hehe.. Big Jun can't go online anymore until after SPM.. Wee.. I'm online now dino.. Too bad for you.. Lol.. Sigh.. Have to go study now.. Catch you people later.. Bye.. <3

Lost..

2006-08-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

Bleh.. Weee.. Finaly able to take a break from books.. Its independence day tomorrow and im stuck home.. I wanted to go watch the fire works.. But mummy said that it will end too late so i can't go.. (sobs)

This exam week wasn't as stressful as the last.. Nup.. There weren't any science or maths papers.. Just had to study sejarah..

Last Saturday, Chia Ling and i went for Mr. Rajh's seminar.. I had to wake up at an extremely early hour which was like at 7.30? Well.. The seminar started at 9 and ended at 6.30.. Yeap.. So you can guess how tired i was.. We made a few new friends there.. People like Thea, Wen Jing, some other girl and Teck Yang(Did i get it right? Bleh.. dunno lar) MU is so huge..!!! Quite a number of students from our school went.. Saw Bryan there and he was like, "Junyi, come for seminar also never tell me lar.. What kind of friend are you ar?"Okay.. So i told him that i didn't expect to see him there and don't tell me that i should tell the whole world that im going for the seminar.. C= Sorry Bryan..

Erm.. We had the english paper on Monday.. Yea.. I didn't study at all.. C= English was okay.. Just that the summary part was abit difficult? Besides that.. it was okay.. Oh and we had Sejarah paper 2 on Tuesday.. Some of the science stream people were taking accounts so we - the Kempasians were chased out of the class along with the Keledangians.. Chae Yin, Sybil, Adani and i proceeded to the corridors of 5 Belian to "study".. Noelle went to Belian to catch up on some last minute studying so i did not bother her.. We sat along the corridor and discussed some sejarah Islam thing.. Then along came Weng Khye who joined us.. Then came Wei Liong.. Then came Yee Ping.. After awhile there left Wei Liong.. Then left Yee Ping.. Then left Weng Khye.. Then Weng Khye came back.. And Wei Liong came back with Sun Mei.. Then Weng Khye shooed them away.. (Oh well.. Its confusing) Wei Liong, Chae Yin and i had a heaty discussion about world war 1 and 2.. Man.. We're quite good..C= Weng Khye just stared at us blankly.. You see.. That lazy fellow did not study.. Haih.. So he says he doesn't like any subject that needs to "study".. He prefers the "thinking" ones.. (hmph..) Oh well.. He ended up cheating anyway.. It looked like i passed on my cough and flu to Weng Khye, Wei Liong and Chae Yin..(sorry guys.. I contracted it from Weng Khye first.. Not my fault.. Blame him.. He better not pass it back to me again man..) C=

And today..!!! It was Hari Penghayatan Kemerdekaan.. Pn. Zulaikah, En. Ismail and Datin Norizan gave the long long speeches.. All the form fivers were scolded by Pn. Norsham for studying?? Worse still.. There were more fire works when Datin started her speech.. She practically screamed at us.. And cursing us about dying tomorrow and not knowing the utusan by the YDA? So said some of the Keledangians, "I think she loves addressing herself as beta".. Well.. Honestly.. I have no idea what nonsense was said up there.. (grins) Hmm.. we had the whole morning to prpare for sejarah paper 1.. First we sat for the PJK paper.. Everyone finished it in less than 15 mins.. Again we were chased out of the class because they had to sit for the accounts paper 1.. It was really really windy today.. Almost all the Kempasians were sitting along the corridors.. Ching Yee, Yun, Anusha, Ee May, Weng Khye, Wei Liong and some unmentioned names sat around cozily to study.. We all blocked the way and therefore caused lots of trouble to the ongoing people.. Behind us were the BIMBO group.. so we all practically jammed up the place.. Noelle was so tensed up about the paper.. No idea why.. I kept telling her that sejarah paper 1 is based on logic..(serious) But no.. She wouldn't believe me.. Hmph.. During the sej 1 exam.. Anusha passed "oreos" around the class.. Everyone was involved with either eating or passing the biscuits.. Thankfully Pn. Anisha did not object or fussed..

Just came back from visiting my Granny's.. Bro is back from uni.. Apparently he has a long holiday.. (unfair) Mum is still out at the hotel where Aunty Ney is staying in now.. She came down from Kuching dunno how many days ago and i didn't know that..C= Sis is mugging for her UPSR? (And i keep nagging her that its ONLY UPSR..) Still not sure if i wanna go to Ulu Yam tomorrow with the rest of the church.. (Lazy lar) Oh yea.. Donny just commented about that place being ulu in school just now.. He said something like "Ulu Yam.. Aiyah.. Sure very Ulu wanla that place.. Got river only.. Mana ada beach?"(wonder how they are going to play games and sing songs.. Hmm.. Interesting..) Okay.. getting baptised in a river is so not fun man.. If i get baptised next year.. Im gonna make sure it will be held at the Langkawi beach.. hehe..

Another "sickly" week..

2006-08-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

Yet.. Another week had passed on quickly.. I look back in regret as i recalled staring blankly at the exam papers.. Bleh.. i know i did not study much.. But.. ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!

Okay.. I looked at the chemistry paper and just stared at it.. EXPRESSIONLESS.. I could not even answer the first question.. I looked around me.. I saw Weng Khye and Anusha giving signals.. (oh well..) Im proud to say that i did not cheat.. Nope.. not even once.. weeeee.. Like i said the paper was difficult.. Even the smart people could not answer it.. (hint hint).. Some of the papers were okay.. Some were pretty bad.. sigh.. especially the maths and sciences.. Guess im more in to linguistics.. Well.. Its not my fault i fell sick during the week..

I lost my voice on tuesday and wednesday.. Yea.. I was talking with gestures.. sometimes just whispering.. Prcatically annoyed noelle, cheng yi, wei liong, yun wayne, patricia, weng khye, huang ming, yee ping.. etc.. etc.. with my "hidden voice".. You see.. They had a hard time guessing what i was trying to say.. Worse still when i got my voice back.. i had a flu.. And the medicine makes you sleepy.. so i was pretty drowsy while trying to study.. As expected nothing went in..

During the exams.. I irritated those around me with my coughs.. (sorry guys) I shouldnt have migrated from my lonely spot from the back of the classroom to the noisy spot infront.. Oh yea.. I had loads of help from wei liong for chem and a whole load of help from weng khye for maths and phyiscs(thanks ppl).. Hehe.. i was bugging noelle before the chem exam on Friday about going to watch "click" on Saturday..

Well.. We went alrite.. yea.. The show was good.. Those who went were the same usual ppl i hang out with.. Noelle, Amelia, Wei Liong, Huang Ming, Weng Khye, Yee Ping, Chae Yin, Sun Mei, Yin Yin.. bla bla bla.. Me, ame and snowy met up with Rin Pin before the movie while the others went for karaoke?? (Phew.. Thankfully it did not rain..lol) I had a dinner after that and i did not want the rain to ruin it..

Hmmm.. I may be going to the library everyday during the hols.. Maybe i can catch up more on my studies without the distraction of my piano.. And to teman noelle as well.. C=

I know i should be studying for the BM paper..

2006-08-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I think i should be studying for Monday's paper instead of blogging.. Oh well.. (grins).. Lets go back to Wednesday(9 August 2006)? Lets see.. Hmm.. I guess i ponteg-ed school along with a whole load of DU-rians? Yea.. I went to the library again.. I did not study much i guess.. Too hyper(lol).. Yee Ping and i sort of agreed to car pool cause she doesnt have transport there and i did not have transport back.. Yea.. I fetched her there.. But i was really really late(sorry).. I woke up extremely early on that day(It was 7:52).. I took my own sweet time preparing and went on nagging dad to fetch me to the library.. After he was done.. He MADE me go for breakfast with my granny(haiz).. So i had to sms Yee Ping to say that i may be going to fetch her at about 9:30.. Great.. We agreed to meet the others at 9.. And now we were going to be late.. Fine.. I went for breakfast with Grans, JV, bro and my dad.. Too bad Sheng could not join us.. He had to rush for college.. The service was VERY slow.. We waited for at least 15 minutes(i know i'm impatient).. Bleh.. That means i would be even later..

We reached Yee Ping's house at about 9:45? And away we went.. Reached the library at 10.03.. Got my usual quiet spot and sat down to mug my books.. Then Yee Ping decided to abandon me and left for Huang Ming and gang.. I was happily enjoying the quietness of the library when Wei Liong came around.. Soon.. He joined my table along with Weng Khye.. As Weng Khye was making a whole load of noise.. Noelle smsed me.. She said she woke up late again so she did not go to school and then decided to join us in the library.. Well.. I tried doing some add maths and got stuck.. So i asked help from Wei Liong .. He stared at the algebra question for a jolly long time but soon gave up and passed the question on to WK.. Yeap.. He got it solved(hmph)..

At noon time.. "they" decided to go for lunch.. And i HAD to join in cause i would feel lonely(lol).. Noelle could not join us for lunch because she had to go to ONE UTAMA?? Bleh.. HM said that i could join him and Yee Ping for lunch so i did not need to got with "the others".. But we all ended up going to the same place.. Yea.. Being proud as usual.. I joined HM and YP as they hiked to the mamak stall which was a whole load of kilometers away..(I know.. i was a lamp post)..We reached there in about 20 minutes.. Yea.. When we reached, the others were almost done with lunch.. I picked at the food and decided to give up on it cause i had slight breathing difficulties after that long long walk.. Made my way to a nearby convenience store to get some bread for later..

Okay.. I did not go to school also on Thursday.. Stayed home and lazed around.. I wanted to study but ended up playing the piano for almost 3 hours and slept for the rest.. Memorized the moral nilais and did some math questions.. Went for tuition after that.. Weeee.. Noelle was so happy.. We sat at the back of YKY during bio tuition.. Snowy just cant help staring at him.. Junyi just rolls her eyes.. Noelle was so afraid to talk to him.. I told her to use many different techniques to TRY talk to him.. As usual.. She failed.. Class ended.. She was so devastated.. I knew i had to do something for my best friend.. Yeap.. So MISSION-2.. I walked up to Justin.. I said three words, " Justin, introduce them" As quick as lightning.. Without thinking he called YKY'S name and said rather clumsily, "Kai Yang. This is Noelle." I was like woah.. He is good.. YKY did not appear shocked.. But somehow he stumbled as he shook hands with noelle.. (Yea.. He really DID shake hands) After that incident.. Noelle went home smiling and laughing all the way..

Friday was okay.. Once i reached school.. Noelle kept singing about what had happened yesterday.. (full moon?) The hours before the moral paper started.. She just kept thrusting her hand in mine wanting to shake it(lol).. Obsessed.. The moral paper was quite bad.. I did not study the Aktas and many of them came out.. bleh.. Never mind.. CF was okay i guess.. Right after the moral paper.. Kit Teng brought Mark(Kee Wai, a form fiver of SMDU that has left and is doing home schooling) to our class.. He said that he wanted to give me a lift to CF(yea man).. Yeap.. i intro-ed noelle to him but he said her name was difficult to remember.. Okaaaaay.. Yea.. we got a ride there.. at least can save energy.. haha.. He left soon after he dropped us.. So i guess thats how my week went.. Have to go do my essay now.. bye bye..

Im back to blogging..

2006-08-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hey there.. erm.. i decided to delete my previous blog and start a new one(again).. Sowiee.. C=

Okay.. So Noelle and i started off our Thursday by going to the Taman Tun library.. My dad had no idea where the place was so i had to call Snowy to find out.. Sadly.. Noelle wasn't a very good road director(lol).. With a little of my brains plus a little of Snowy's plus another portion of my dads.. We got there with no trouble at all.. At first, we thought that we would be the only silly ones who were dumb enough to go to the library on a school day.. Weeee.. But after looking and figuring out how to sign up and stuff.. We met Ching Yee.. We were so so surprised.. Then she told us "some other people" would be coming.. (That means no study time.. Bet we would be chatting away)

Well.. Noelle DID NOT study at all.. Maybe just a few pages of bio.. Snowy said that Ching Yee on ly managed to do 10 questions of add maths at the end of the day.. She said they were gossiping way at the back there.. As for me.. I think i did the most progress among all(weee..).. I finished chapter 2 of form five history.. The last chapter of bio.. And one latihan of maths (paper1).. Bleh.. I was expecting to do more.. Thursday wasn't that bad after all.. The only sad thing was we had to eat lunch on the roadside outside the library(sad..).. I was very mean on that day(i know..).. Noelle made me feel worse during bio tuition.. Sobs.. I didn't want to be mean.. But terpaksalah.. C=

Bio tuition was a drag.. But it was quite fun.. This time Noelle and i sat in the middle.. A few rows infront of YKY.. (lol) Snowy was so frustrated.. She said that she can't see him from where we sat.. Well.. After weeks of waiting.. Noelle failed again.. (If you know what i mean) Justin and i tried persuading her to "go".. But of course we failed.. Hope that Justin can come up with a new plan next week yea.. Oh yea.. and I just discovered that Jun Hong is half deaf.. Maybe it would sound better if i said that he is VERY blur.. Throughout tuition i complained about not wanting to go to school the next day.. But Snowy insisted.. Bleh..

Fine.. Somehow i managed to get up and make my way to school.. Met Kit Teng and gang before perhimpunan.. Had a short chat and went to our lines.. i started looking around for Noelle.. So.. I did not see her.. Perhaps she went for morning prayer? Okay.. so i waited with Cheng Yi.. Bleh.. I knew she would oversleep.. Sheesh.. She did not come and left me all alone.. Then.. i started looking around for Adani and Naridah.. At least Naridah was there.. Weeee.. Wei de liong and Weng de Khye came too.. During physics.. I had a hard time understanding "get logik".. Thanks to Tycoon and Ee May.. I finally understand a little.. Oh yea.. I had a hard time paying attention to my conversations because i was talking to liong2, khye2, tyc2 and TRYING to pay attention to Pn. Ching.. Sniff..

Well the plot thickens as i remembered that i had to present the moral thingy.. It climbs to the top as i realised that everything is with Noelle.. And she didn't come.. Thanks to Chae YIn.. I managed to come up with something at the last minute..(literarily) Pn. Ramlah took over our BI and math lessons to finish her syllabus.. (exams next week.. die lo..) Oh yea.. Weng de Khye was walking like a gangster today(ritez? lol..) He said that Donny told him that the way he walks is very "mu".. (grins) After school.. i skipped CF.. Mom could not fetch me.. Then i went home and slept till my piano teacher came(grins).. Again she pressured me about the grade 8 stuff.. Bleh.. (decisions.. decisions..) Aiks.. i finally understand "get logik" after consulting the internet.. So that was how my day went i guess.. Have to try studying now.. Ciao..